Crying in the shower, getting into bed and crying more. I almost fucking relapsed…. But I kept seeing your face… Telling me not to do it. I don’t know what to do. I’m clutching onto your sweater praying you’ll come knocking at my window. Praying you’ll let me hold you in my arms forever. I need you. I love you. I’m in love with you and I have been since I met you. Don’t throw me away….
Laying In bed and bawling my eyes out uncontrollably. I’m pretty sure I managed to push away the only thing in this world that mattered to me…. And she leaves in 10 days. I can’t do this…..